...not yet

She kept telling herself that it was all over.
...that she had to let go...that he didn’t love her anymore.

But she kept remembering his face, his smile and his voice. She remembered the way he touched her cheek and the way he played with her hair.

She knew she had to get over him, that she had to move on. But then she realised she wasn’t ready...not yet.

The A to Z Meme

A
• Are you available? Absolutely not.
• What is your age? I feel young so the number doesn’t matter.
• What annoys you? Emotional blackmailing.
B
• Do you know anyone named Billy? No
• When is your birthday? 2nd of July
• Who is your best friend? Aruna to name one.
C
• What's your favorite candy? I don’t like candy.
• Crush? None at the moment
• When was the last time you cried? I think 2 months ago. I don’t remember why.
D
• Do you daydream? Of course!!!
• What's your favorite kind of dog? Golden Retriever
• What day of the week is it? Sunday
E
• How do you like your eggs? Omelet
• Have you ever been in the emergency room? Not as a patient but was there when my brother had an accident.
• Ever pet an elephant? Yes.
F
• Do you use fly swatters? Nope.
• Have you ever used a foghorn? Nope.
• Is there a fan in your room? Nope.
G
• Do you chew gum? Yup!
• Do you like gummy candies? Nope.
• Do you like gory movies? Nahhhhhh…
H
• How are you? Awesome!!!
• What's your height?. 5 feet 2 and a half inches.
• What color is your hair? Black with streaks of brown.
I
• What's your favorite ice cream? Belgium Dark Chocolate (slurp… slurp…)
• Have you ever ice skated? Nope.
• Ever been in an igloo? No.
J
• What's your favorite Jelly Bean? What’s that?
• Have you ever heard a really hilarious joke? Lots of them
• Do you wear jewelry? Sometimes.
K
• Who do you want to kill? Nobody.
• Have you ever flown a kite? Yes.
• Do you think kangaroos are cute? Yeahhhh…
L
• Are you laidback? I don’t think so.
• Lions or Tigers? Tigers
• Do you like black licorice? No.
M
• Favorite movie as a kid? I don’t remember
• Ever shopped at Moosejaw? No.
• Favorite store at the mall? Lifestyle stores
N
• Do you have a nickname? Chubby, Tripper, Rach…
• Whats your favorite number? 2
• Do you prefer night or day? I am a nocturnal being.
O
• What's your one wish? Stand at the Eiffel Tower and look up at it when the lights lit up.
• Are you an only child? Nope. I have a little brother.
• Do you like the color orange? Nahhh…
P
• What are you most paranoid about? Cleanliness
• Piercings? 2 on each ear.
• Do you know anyone named Penelope? No.
Q
• Are you quick to judge people?
No• Do you like Quaker Oats? Oh yeah. I have it every other day for breakfast.
• Know anyone that makes quilts? No
• Do you think you're always right? No.
• Do you watch reality TV? Sometimes.
• Reason to cry? Women don’t really need a reason to cry.
S
• Do you prefer sun or rain? Sun
• Do you like snow? Yes
• What's your favorite season? Spring
T
• time is it? 9:31 pm• What time did you wake up? 6 am
U
• Can you ride a unicycle? No.
• Do you know anyone with a unibrow? Yeah.
• Uncles do you have? Yes
V
• What’s the worst vegetable? I love vegetables.
• Did you ever watch Veggie Tales? ???????
• Ever considered being vegan? Nahhhh…
W• What's your worst habit? Obsession with cleanliness I guess.
• Do you like water rides? Ohhhh yeahhhhh….
• Ever been inside a windmill? No.
X
• Have you ever had an x-ray? Yes.
• Ever used a Xerox machine? Yes
Y
• Do you like the color yellow? Shades of it.•
What year were you born in?: Haaa haaaa…smart one.
•Do you yell when you're angry? No. I find sulking more satisfying ;)
Z
• Do you believe in the zodiac? A little.
• What's your zodiac sign? Cancer
• When was the last time you went to the zoo? 2 years ago. Indira Gandhi zoological Park in Hyderabad.

Dont Be Lazy

People who throw kisses are mighty hopelessly lazy.

-Bob Hope -

The 29er Meme

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
Credit card bills.

2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
Last week at home. My hubby made noodles and we had it out of a big bowl. Its amazing how sometimes the simplest of things make you feel special.

3. How many colleges did you attend?
Two. (Graduation and Post graduation)

4. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?
Coz I feel damn comfortable in it. I bought it for 70 Rs a year ago.

5. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
“It’s already time to wakeup?!?”

6. Last thought before going to sleep last night?
“I hope I feel better tomorrow morning.”

7. What do you miss being a child?
Innocence. Experience ruins it all.

8. What errand/chore do you despise?
Ironing clothes.

9. Have you found real love yet?
Oh yeah! I am married to him.

10. What do you get every time you go into Wal-Mart?
I have never been to a Wal-Mart.

11. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?
No way! I think marriage is an important and a sacred ritual.

12. What famous person would you like to have dinner with?
GEORGE CLOONEY

13. Ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?
Thankfully no!

14. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go?
All of it. I have never been there.

15. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?
Nahhh…I am in a relationship I wouldn’t want to change for anything. And I have my priorities set and career is not on the top of the list.

16. Do you have a “go to” person?
Yes. My husband.

17. Are you where you want to be in life?
I am on the right path to where and what I want to be .

18. Over the years, what about you do you think has changed the most?
What has changed the most is the way I look at life and how I handle it. As I grew up I realized that life as simple as one keeps it.

19. Looking back at high school were they the best years of your life?
High school was great but not the best years of my life.

20. Are there times you still feel like a kid?
Of course! A lot of times :)

21. Where was the hang out spot when you were a teenager?
I did not hang out when I was a teenager.

22. Who do you think impacted your life the most?
Someone from my past I dont want to talk about.

23. Was there a teacher or authority figure that stood out for you?
No. Never have been in a situation that needed someone to stand out for me.

24. Do you tell stories that start with “when I was your age”?
No.

25. What is the scariest thing that has happened to you as an adult?
Sometimes I have nightmares. They are scarier than reality.

26. What advice would you give to someone about to get married?
Always communicate with your spouse.

27. What advice would you give someone starting their first job?
Respect your work and make sure you enjoy what you do.

28. If you could go back and change one thing you did, what would it be?
It sounds cliché but I don’t want to go back and change anything.

29. If you could go back and change one thing someone else did, what would it be?
Too many things here ;)

Am Sleeping All Day

I have been a mess for a week now. I have been terribly weak with no energy to even make a cup of tea. My medical reports are normal, which is good, but I don’t know what’s causing the weakness. All I have been doing is just sleep all day. Reading even a few paragraphs is like a big task.

I am too tired to write anymore than this. So, until I feel better, I will follow my doctor’s advice and sleep.

8 DONTS

[Written for You've Been Tagged!]

There are a lot of Do’s and Don’ts in life. My top 8 DON’Ts are:

1. Don’t burn your bridges.
It is a small world. You never know when again you might have to face an old employer or a friend. By burning your bridges you are only closing down on opportunities in life.

2. Don’t take a decision when you are confused.
When you are not sure which way to go don’t go. When you’re confused, step back, clear your mind, take some time to think, and then decide.

3. Don’t bring up old issues/problems when in an argument.
The key word is ‘focus’. Bringing up old issues will not solve your present problem. What’s over is a closed chapter.

4. Don’t ever stop communicating with your spouse.
Always talk to your spouse about your concerns and worries. It is important for a couple to share not only happy thoughts but also the fears. By communicating you will not only be happy but you will make your lives simple.

5. Do not make casual calls to your married friends after 9 pm and before 9 am.
Gossiping can wait until tomorrow. Don’t disturb your friend and his/her family between 9 pm. And 9 am. It is family time for them.

6. Don’t ever stop learning.
It is important to learn new things. It keeps you young, energetic and sane.

7. Don’t forget the lessons learnt.
We all make mistakes in life. But it’s important we don’t repeat our mistakes.

8. Don’t forget to laugh.Laughter sure is the best medicine.
A sense of humor will help you sail through the toughest of times.

...love like

She sat looking into the sea, her eyes searching for something...perhaps an answer or a sign.

The wind blew her hair across the face and reminded her of the time he said “You have lovely curls” as she tucked a lock of hair behind her ear. Something that fell in her eye reminded her of how he used to look into her eyes endlessly and say “your eyes speak more than you ever can.”

The sound of the waves reminded her of the moment when he whispered “I love you” in her ear in the middle of the road.

She frowned. Sometimes she hated her ability to remember details.

She looked down at the bunch of cards she was holding. He had given her for Valentine’s Day. 14 of them.

“1 for each day” he had said.

She read them all over again. The peacock feather he had once given her slipped out of one of the cards. She smiled to herself again only this time she felt a tear trickle down her cheek.

She took a long deep breath and stood up. With her eyes set on the horizon she thought, ‘Beautiful illusion...love like!’ before turning back and walking away.